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How long has it been since I've written a thought-deep post? A long time ago, I guess.

Is it possible to be linked to someone for the rest of your life? Apparently, this has yet to be answered by me and everyone else. Nothing lasts forever, right?

It seems so long ago how one can be impeccably close to someone else. But as distances grew and communication became abrupt, the link between them slowly becomes faint. Finally, it vanishes into dust.

But as time continues on, it seems that the bits of the chain revert back, forming the link once again. This time, it's stronger than before.

But would it last? Is it going to shatter yet again like it did before? If it will, is it going to come back again?

I could do only nothing but wait and enjoy the bond we have right now.

A recap for the past days and clearing of my thoughts

I have been tired from all of the activities for the past few weeks. Come to think of it, I'm always tired. XD it's probably my excuse to being lazy. Anyways, Let me give you a recap of what happened when I was MIA from my blog yet again.

We've had our intramurals last month, so it was pretty busy with all of the preparations and such...even if we didn't have school for over a week. You can't seem to find the time for yourself. I need that, Me-time.

Broken friendships have been built once again, which gives me a reason to smile. Not only mine, but others who lost their bonds found theirs yet again. The past is past, and we're now off to start a better one. :)

That is the upside, but there has been a downside...come to think of it....a major downside. In no relation to the above paragraphs, there has been alot of drama going around in the school. I wish I could truly express every detail of it here on my blog, but I'm afraid that it might interfere with one's life. Everything changes everything. Do not take your actions for granted. Sadly, I can only express my thoughts through brief thoughts.

Now let me say this for the benefit of my aching head. I am pissed with all the drama coming out.

I am pissed the fact you want me to take sides and be so effin pissed if I do not. You think otherwise of me, looking down to me as if I was your inferior. You are wrong. Why, of all people, YOU have to look down to me? Trust me, I am way better than you for I know what's right and what's wrong. Why do you act like you don't care what's going on around you, but the truth is you want to break down and scream your insanity out? Why not face it? Why?

I have my flaws too. But unlike you, I learn from them. Taking into mind what to do when it happens again. On the other hand, you don't. All you do is put on that stupid beauty pageant pity-me-I'm-completely-innocent face to someone and think you're off the hook. Puh-lease. Do you think your eyes could hide the truth from that overly plastered smile on your face?

You think you could hide this from us? Why do you not take our thought of concern for you? You think we're just jealous and that you can handle it on your own? YOU.ARE.SO.WRONG.

Also, why do you complain that someone hurts you when your actions yourself hurt someone else? Do you ever stop being so freakishly self-centered? Do you ever care to think about someone's feelings for a change? I somehow wonder how can a person be so caught up with themselves that they don't give a damn about the people around them. Don't go all emotional over it. It's not worth to cry over yourself.

And lastly, why do we all think we know the whole story? When we even never listen to the other side. Why do we judge others easily and take the inverse into a bad note, therefore not considering that it might right. Why do we think that our actions do not affect the worlds of others? Are we that too deep into our own world?

I'm annoyed....everyone's annoyed by the whole situation. I wish we could graduate already and leave this all behind.

I breathe in. Hold. Release.

I'm okay now.

UPCAT

Ahhh....the dreaded day has finally come. I took the UPCAT yesterday.

I found it very easy...except for the math test. Damn mental block and damn me for not listening much on geometry class when they discussed angles! Ugghh.....so frustrating.....Death toll would be on February next year.

Time and Butterflies

Time. It's where our memories and challenges flow. We all cherish the thought of time's wonders, but sometimes we underestimate and exhaust it's capabilities.

And although time will never run out, this particular event it seems as if it did. I'm an official high-school senior. And my time glass will be turned-over soon for college.

It will be soon. But for now, I think my current responsibilities would be to focus on studies and reminiscing time's cherished shares with me.

Not so long ago, I stepped into a room in which my expectations of it were disintegrated once I made my entrance. It's a dose of reality, but it's still an overwhelming feeling. I remember how dim and awkard it would be. There were acquaintances and strangers that occupy the space. All gathered together, confusion brought upon who's who, what's what, and where's where.

But this phase did not linger on. The clock continues to click and you can never stop it, all you have to do is adjust yourself, for time won't cease just for your sake.

After growing up from the freshmen status, we were able to feed upon new knowledge on basically about everything. If we go into deeper detail of this, we would take years pertaining to each one. But this is simply brief, for we don't want to waste much time no longer.

Now here we are back to the current swaying of life's pendulum. Certainly, if you've been through the time from the moment I stepped into the classroom, you'll see how we've adjust and changed. To most of us, the word "acquaintance" to one another has been omitted and renewed with the term "friend" or "buddy". Bonds were broken, others were made. Foes call truce to battle, while the closest of brothers start war. Love and other emotions came fluttering about us.

But the paragraph above just seems to sound like things got chaotic, right? However, you may be wrong for that perspective thought. It is simply us, opening ourselves to one another. Being carefree and comfortable to the company of the people around us. You can twist my words and make the thought more explanatory. It's like we were once little caterpillars. Aloof, confused, and juvenile. But as moments passed, the little caterpillar of ourselves learned values and everything around it, thus over time was able to feed upon what it learned, and finally grew out of its feelers and became a beautiful butterfly. Spreading its wings, signifying everything about it. Ready to take on the world.

We're all beautiful butterflies ready to fly off and face the world :D

How would I die...

This article may be more deep and dark than my usual ways of writing, but it's something I've been thinking about.

Death....something very abundant in the world. Practically a person dies about every 5 or 3 seconds. But there's some details on death that remain a mystery...

Death because of something painful, any of the sort from a gun piercing through your skin to being hanged by your best friend. What does it feel like? knowing that at the most critical downfall of your life is where life stops as well? Would there be regrets and grudges still holding on to the soul? Or will rest and peace be at will?

Then there's the act where one dies peacefully, either awake or sleep. Although they may leave the earth with happiness, but were they contented with life?

So here I am, head filled with the questions of death and dying...wondering how I'll die myself....but if I were given a chance by Death herself to how I would die, it'll be under an apple tree, with me wearing all white [white I heard is the true color of death, for as black is the color of the night], writing my last thoughts, and finally drifting off to sleep as Death comes to me, with her scythe to take me away....

Very deep ne? Well, that is how I'm feeling now ne ^_^

How about you? How would you want to die?

Picea Bakeshop and Resto...Sweet!

The other day after my calculus class, my aunt and I went over to this bakeshop Picea to have a snack. When I entered the store, I instantly saw this wicked cake out for display!
We had pesto there though..Mmmm....Yummy! I wish I could've had a piece of that cake though...oh well, maybe some other time ^_^

The Best Graduation gift I want >_<

Aiming for graduation: A Sony DSC H50 or higher cam....Final! >_<

Random Pic atm xD

Nothing, just testing the Macro feature on the camera xD

School's almost back...

...and I'm so not into it. Okay, I'm gonna be a senior now, what big? Gah, Honestly, I'm realy tired of school. Sometimes I wish we could just study what we want to study. Well, anyways....starting of the schoolyear means another hiatus to my online life I guess.

Anyways, I'm sorting out what school supplies I will be needing :) don't want to stress out with my studies again right now [I must chill.... xDD]. Currently, I just have a new binder and a school bag :)

Minmie Messnger Bag and a Campus Ace Binder. Bought the Minmie bag @ http://curlsandtwirls.multiply.com

Updates [May 9, 2009]

>I'm getting tired of this layouts =/ I want a new blog layout.
>Reading City of Ashes
>I hate doing calculus homework -.-
>Tomorrow's Mother's Day!
>Determined to be a size small now D:
>Chabo is sho cute! xDD

The Desktop's Back!

Now, remember the other post stating that the Desktop's broken? Well, it's fixed na ^_^ I just got it yesterday. =D

It wasn't necessarily "broken" it just had this annoying virus it got from someone's infected usb [sheesh, don't you guys ever scan those things? I paid over 600php just to get it fixed]. And it's kind of virus that affects the usage of RAM and makes the computer slow. I tried manually removing it via DOS command, but everytime I open the program, my comp crashes and shuts down. Thinking that it needed to be reformatted, I decided to send it to a technician.

I explained to him the main problem [it's because there has been times that they do stuff to the comp which wasn't needed, and I had to pay more than what was expected] and he did his job. Now it's back! And I just had to lose some minor files, but atleast my pc wasn't reformatted. :)

So lesson learned, never plug a usb to the computer unless it's safe and it didn't came from inet cafes :D

18 things I want for my 18th Birthday

I know it's pretty silly since I'll be 18 in 2 years [lol xD], but I think I wanna get started on the list in case I'll be stumped of what I want for my debut :)

Btw, I'm a tech-geek mostly, so don't wonder why I have so much techy stuff on my list xD

1. sony cybershot DSC-h50B [I'm in a camera mood xD....]

2. A Purple or White or even Pink Sony Vaio! :D

3. Macbook Pro perhaps? haha :D
4. Kawaii Shoes! [Specifically knee-high boots!]5. An Old fashioned Journal ^_^

6. A Ticket to visit Singapore! :D


7. A Pretty Make-up Box :)

8. Geo Circle Lens Magic Color 2tone [blue]
9. A Lolita Inspired Dress! :)

10. Japanese/Lolita-inspired Umbrella
11. A Biig Heart Locket :D

12. Kipling Bags! :D

13. Hello Kitty Phone! [this type especially xD] :)

14. A Panda TV! ^_^

15. Cake :D



16. A Kawaii bed for Mei-li my favorite dog in the world! :)
17. a Psp 3000

18. Finally, I think I want are lace gloves and other cute gloves xD



Okay, I know my list seems pretty silly, but hey....I'm silly myself...Well, maybe in 2 years I'll change this...or maybe I'll get everyth

Fake Account on Facebook

Someone Posed as Oyen on facebook. Do not be fooled.

Back to my photoshop addiction

Haha...I'm currently at home often this week...so boring...my desktop is still a bust. Waiting for the darn technician to have it fixed >_< [ang tagal niya!]. So I'm still stucked using the laptop for the meantime [too bad it doesn't have any games] D:.

Usually when I would go online, I realize that mostly everyone's into the whole photo-editing thing. I used to remember that this was just common on imvu and such. Now, it's everywhere x.x

The weird thing is, most editings look so completely identical @_@. That's when I found out most are using photobucket and/or picnick editing things online. A friend even asked me to try it out since she found it to be really fun. And out of my own curiosity, I did. But I don't know, it doesn't feel right =/. It's like just one click and poosh! Unlike when I do it in photoshop it takes a bit more time.

Still, I'm sticking to photoshop 'til the very end. Unlike those online photo-editing things, ps gives me freedom to be creative in every way I can.

Photoshop Lover forever! :D

Yay! It's finally done!

Ahhh...finished my overlayed layout on friendster...and I must say, I love what I made. =3

Anywho, time for the background info!

It's titled "Frosted Lillies" since as I was making it, I was counting the books on my shelf. I realized my Wicked Lovely by Marissa Marr wasn't there [Rachel still probably has it...LoL] and bang! It hit me like a cookie getting dunked into a cup of milk. I remember the cover, a girl holding out an orchid covered with frost. So...why not call my little project "Frosted Lily"? It sounds so kawaii! :D


^__^

Almost Done!

Ahh, I'm almost done with my website...It'll serve as my friendster layout...I can't wait to show it to the world! xD

Rainy day...

I woke up around 4 in the morning for an early jog....as I look out the window, dark clouds hover the sky pouring water over us. Yep, it was raining and it still is. D:

Don't get me wrong, I love the rain...It makes me want to huddle into a ball and sleep. But right now, I'm in no mood to sleep. I wanna go outside and play D:

I'm now currently pissed off with my yahoo messenger. You see, I made a new account yesterday since my old one was completely disorganized and such. Gah, I'm so annoyed. Gonna make another one then D: [so frustrating talaga D:]


After that, I'll probably go and continue on my reading...I'm almost through with Falling Leaves, a book by Adeline Yen Mah.It's such a touching on her life in China. Maybe I'll post a review on it later on.


That's all for now. ^_^

~Kami

Updating!

I'll be taking time off starting tomorrow night in updating my blogs layouts, and all social accounts I hold ownership as well. Wish me luck and hope you'll enjoy it :D

Summer going fine and dandy :D

March 28, 2009 * Pizza hut with my fave buddies ^_^ [from left: Martin, Christine, Gilen, Arianne, Rachel, Reian, Me, Tricia, Redge]

It's only been like about two weeks of summer vacay and I must say, it'a going pretty well for me. :). I haven't had a frown or made a whine about it at all I think xDD.

Well, I do have some issues I'm trying to work out right now....My desktop is still in the need to be fixed [grr virus D:<] also, I have about 3-4 articles I need to start writing for the school's paper...[Q: I srsly can't remember signing up for the school paper O_o] . But oh well, Kaya ko yun! haha xD

I'm loving summer so much! I get to powerwalk in the morning, and go malling at the afternoon, and dance at night. Wooohooo! :D


Finally, by the last week of May, there has been plans of us cousins going to Hong Kong! Yay! :D


Hope everyone's having a great summer too :D

Me with Steffie and Nang Cha @ Coffeebreak, Smallville

Happyslip!

Feeling blue and don't know what to do? Well, go to http://www.happyslip.com to cheer yourself up! ;D
Happyslip is a one-woman show, starring Filipino gal Christine. She creates funny sketches base on her usual encounters with her family. It's really funny xD.

I happen to found happyslip on youtube a year ago [random searching...LoL] and as of now, I'm a big fan of it. Click the pic to go to happyslip and get happy now! :D

Facebook Mania

When I signed up for Facebook I think a year ago...I basically had like 4-5 friends on it [extremely close friends, I must say] but now...I have like about 20 friends already...and some aren't that close...is facebook fever coming soon? I hope not. I'm already annoyed by the friendster mayhem >_<

I've just had one hectic day o.o

Currently is: [Updating facebook and trying to un-stress self]

I am completely drained as of now. Gah, thank goodness it's almost over.

My day at school started off with our Science Congress for our chemistry project. It was such a drag, really. Listening to random science investigations we've conducted is pretty tiring and my mind was a blur to all of it. Well, at least I'll be able top sleep better [no more papers and deadlines meets].

We then went into major rush for our musical in Hercules. It was really funny, we just toppled ourselves with pieces of fabric to get that Greek-ish look. xD And during the whole performance I was lip-syncing my heart out. xD Hey, atleast I'll get a good grade.

Speaking about grades, I just found out I did poorly on my trigo. I'm pretty much worried now, since I cannot accept getting a low grade in a math-related subject. Gah, I hope Ma'am will make adjustments D:

I'm supposed to be free D:

Finally, exams are done, and done. I'm finally released from the cage most of you call school. I'm able to fly off and do anything I want. No more major headaches and trying to stuff knowledge in my head xD.

But no. After my final exams, I'm still drowned with unwanted responsibilities and critical deadlines x_x

A darn musical, a science congress, TLE, and a darn math project. Why don't teachers adjust their deadlines among themselves?! It's hard cramming for everything right now.

I'm dead tired as of now. I don't want to stress out anymore. I am poofed T~T

Addicted to online shopping!

Gah, I'm so into online shopping right now! I get better stuff and great deals from online shopping than going to the mall. Nyahahaha xD


The usual things I buy online were books [Mostly from FullyBooked online and Amazon.com]. Yes, I'm such an avid book-reader. After a while, I got tired of ordering books. xD I now started ordering little trinkets and stuff [I mostly order from Filipino sellers since shipping is expensive if I order outside]. It's really great since I have things people here rarely see or own.

Back then, I was actually scared of online shopping [the fear of getting ripped-off....LoL]. But I decided to give it a try. And guess what, nothing bad happened xD I got this beautiful Lolita hat xD.


So everyone, give online shopping a try instead of mall-hunting. Just make sure you shop online on shop-owners whom you can trust. ^_~

I am pretty much tired of SIPs

Gah, as much as I love learning science-related subjects....I do not enjoy performing SIPs! (SIP is Science Investigatory Project...this is usually our science class projects given for the whole school year).

This year, we're currently doing our SIP on the anti-fungal effect of bamboo shoots on a fungus. My group and I spent sleepless nights on research and paperwork most of the time. Also, during most of our Christmas break was sacrificed for conducting experiments and such.

Here we are now, with successfully conducting the experiment and our final draft submitted two months ago. All that's probably left is the powerpoint presentation, creation of the tarpaulin [my specialty....yay photoshop!] and the defense. Gah, I wish it would all end so I could sleep again x.x

Two weeks left and then it's the end for this school year

Sorry for the rare updates everyone, It's been a while....but Yay! A new post!

Nani.....they're making me read Rizal's Noli Me Tangere in Filipino. Major Tagalog nosebleed for me then xD. Since this is making my head ache so much, I read an english copy of the novel as well just to understand the whole story. Waaa T_T Oh well, two weeks left and it's the end for the school year! Woot baby!

Come to think of it....summer's only a few weeks away then. What am I gonna do for the whole summer? I do not want to stay and sulk at home for two months again [I'll go fat D:]. I need to keep myself active.

Here is a pending list of things for me to do for the summer of 2009:
>Start a business with Reian [sounds a bit profound for a teen, but I'm still giving this a shot]
>Travel around the city [and probably Manila and Bacolod too] and take scenic photos
>Get thin xD
>Do some modelling once the above said has been done
>Read alot of books.
>Take summer classes on either Photography and/or dance.


Well, I think that's gonna keep me busy. I just hope that I'm able to suceed in doing those.....trust me, I'm such a procastinator xD

My Cousins from Canada

Ahhhhh! I miss them all so much. T_T I wish I could go to Canada and be with them D:

Well, here are their pics on my Kuya Mark's birthday.

Kudos to me for having a Flickr account now. I sooo am not into photobucket no more. xDD

From the left: Kuya Mark, Greg, and Max

Max, Eric, and Ranny enjoying a burger xDD

Greg couldn't finish his burger...LoL

The Whole Family

Ahhh, I wish I was there :(

Card Day...Prom...U-week....Ugggh!!!!

I'm currently watching Scandals of the Ancient World while typing this. Haha.

It's a Friday night and I am at home doing nothing except blogging, watching tv, and listening to the chirp of the crickets outside. Haha.

I finally learned how to manipulate this blog thing....haha, took me about 15 minutes to understand the codes needed here. [I'll probably make my own layout once I understand more of the html used].

Anyways, exams are over and now we all have to feel the fear of card day drawing nearer. I must say, I'm pretty scared. Okay, I did well this grading....it's just that, I'm not completely satisfied with this. I kinda feel I haven't done my best. I just hope I wouldn't go down D=

Next week, we will be celebrating University week. This probably means there's gonna be less classes and more activites. I'm not that much into sports [I think the only sport where I can say I'm confident to play at is badminton xD] so I'll just probably wander around the campus with my other non-athletic friends. xDD.

Oh yeah.....a few more weeks 'til prom. Gah, I can' wait! Although I'd have to be standing around much.....but I'm gonna make every moment out of it the best! I've already got the perfect dress, and I can't wait to do ballroom again! Ahhh, I love dancing....it's so liberating for me. xDD

Oh yes! Have I mentioned my friend Reian is a savior? She gave me a sketch of my prom gown! She is so awesome :D

My fourth blog xD

Welcome to my Fourth Blog ever made! Really, I'm that person who never sticks to one blog.

I currently do not have any idea what I'm gonna do with this blog....Hopefully I'll wake up tomorrow morning with an idea I guess.

This is all for now. Thanks and see you all soon! ^_^